Wounded..

Got a li'l bit distracted, disoriented and disorganized..
Suddenly remember my dark past. It always come to me and haunting me for years. Terrible sins I have done.. Make bitter tears run down my wounded heart.
Lord give me strength..
Give me answers, clues and solutions to get thru these all.
Is this really my destiny? The destiny You have written upon my life path? Or is it just my foolishness?
If this is Your decision for me, why does it still hurt?
Lord forgive me..
Without Your mercy, I definitely will be torn apart, falling into pieces.
I want to get back to You. Please.. Please give me strength. I want to love You only.. 'Coz I'm sure, You won't let me down. You would never disappoint me. You wuld never hurt me as Your creations have done on each other.
I know I don't deserve it.
But what would I be without You..